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Inadequate, But Worthy




by Kevin Watson



I goofed around in high school and never took things seriously until later in my junior year. I was never prepared to enter college, so it was never on my mind. In fact, I was very self-conscious about my ability to be “intelligent.” I guess that’s why I decided to go to art school after being out of high school for a couple of years. At least there, I thought, I can express my intelligence in a visual way.

Even to this day, people can talk circles around me with their intellectual words and well-structured sentences. My self-consciousness about my lack of higher education and my fears of “not being good enough” for many tasks have run after me almost my entire adult life.

I have always felt not good enough. I feel that way sometimes about my job, as a husband, as a friend, and even as a Christ-follower.

I look back on the road I have traveled in my career and cannot help but notice that I have been successful in almost everything I have done, regardless of how unpaved that road has been. There have been moments of instability, but they were only moments compared to my life. At just about every job I’ve ever had, I have been promoted into managerial-type positions. My work efforts have catapulted me into higher and higher levels of jobs in my career, even with only an Associate of Arts (AA) degree.

I may not be the most educated person on the planet, but I am hardworking and detail-oriented. I have had managers who always looked at my potential and awarded me accordingly. However, one of my former managers did not have high aspirations for me solely because I only had an AA and my other associates had Bachelor of Arts (BA) or Bachelor of Science (BS) degrees. It didn’t matter to that person what my abilities were or what I had already accomplished. That person only looked at educational accomplishments, which only compounded the internal issues I had with myself.

I have been hesitant about going back to school for several years because of these internal fears: I’m not good enough. I’m not smart enough. I’m afraid to look stupid.

These are some of the struggles that I deal with as a human being.

Finally, this summer [of 2014] I decided to go back to college. I took English Composition, which I never was good at in school, without letting anyone know because I wanted to see how I would do and see if I would continue beyond that class. For the entire semester, I felt inadequate about my intelligence. Then, the week before the last class, the professor said I was the only one in the class who was exempt from doing a final essay because I had an A. I almost did the essay anyway, but I had worked hard for that grade and felt this was the reward I deserved.

For the fall semester, I decided to take on two classes instead of one: Public Speaking and English Composition 2. That was a lot of writing—I had to write speeches and essays almost every week. Even during the semester I still felt intimidated by all the younger people in class and by my perceived lack of intelligence. However, it was becoming more apparent to me that this was nothing more than a mirage that I burdened myself with. In both classes, I received an A+.

I am looking forward to continuing my educational aspirations.

It’s OK to feel insufficient at times because it allows us to work harder to get what we want. Once we get to the point where we think we are “all that,” we lose the ability to work harder, to be stronger, and to accomplish more in life.

Many people are handed things in their life, and they succeed because of that. But at some point it all catches up to them. At some point people will be exposed to what they haven’t accomplished on their own. Those who work hard to get what they have and to be where they are at, are not only more appreciative of what they have done, but also acknowledge those who have gone down the same path or are currently on that path.

Those who know me intimately know that there is nothing privileged about my life. I have every reason to fail. However, I have never let the circumstances that have been handed to me or the unfruitful decisions I have made in the past dictate the outcome of my life. If you are presently on the journey that I have been on, I want to encourage you to keep pressing on. Nothing will be handed to you, and your accomplishments may take some time, so stay focused and don’t give up.

Those who are in the conundrum of their internal struggles, I want to encourage you that life is more than what you think about yourself. Life is always harder when you look at yourself and your perceived lack of abilities. You are more than what you think of yourself. Move forward and don’t get in your own way or let others hold you back; dream of what you can do and then go do it.

Work hard for the accomplishments you have set out before yourself, and ask God to lead in those endeavors. Don’t drag God along. Let God lead. He has more confidence in your abilities than you do yourself.

When you see whom Jesus chose as His disciples and see that they were not held in high esteem in the culture of the day, it shows that what the world esteems as unworthy and inadequate, God esteems as adequate and worthy.

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13, NIV).* 

* Texts credited to NIV are from the Holy Bible, New International Version. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc. Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

Kevin Watson loves working with youth and being a part of the body of Christ. He is a marketing professional seasoned in graphic design and social media. This was reprinted from an original December 5, 2014, post on his blog Uninvited Thoughts from Kev at itskev.com.





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